OK...the plan did not go as planned. You will never guess where I am right now...HEAVEN! I finally got a chance to write. Sorry! Here's the information that I was able to pick up. It turns out that the Friar was supposed to send a letter, but it never got delivered...so that kind of messed up our game plan. Then, Romeo went to go see my 'dead' body in the grave, which I knew because I was awake for a little bit of his visit. Being asleep for two days was the weirdest thing I ever experienced. So I woke up, and find Romeo, freshly dead on the floor, with Paris near by, also dead. I only found out later that Romeo killed him.... Anyway, Friar Laurence left because someone was ...view middle of the document...
It was horrible! Then he started to talk about the...wedding! I almost lost it, but being the actress that I am, I kept my cool. He left, thankfully, and I got to discus my current dire situation with the Friar. I told him very clearly, that if he couldn't help me...then I would have to help myself with a sword through my heart. This would be better then if I had to marry Paris. He then told me a plan... and gave me a vile. "It is a sleeping potion," he said. 'Take it and your will be 'dead' for 2 days." This made my stomach turn. Fake dead! My hands became cold and clammy. My face turned pale and my heart was beating at 100 miles an hour. He then said to me that I was going to have to use my newly found acting skills and apologize to my father. I then was going to have to go alone in my room and toss this horrible liquid to the back of my throat. I walked home slowly, dragging my feet the entire way, dreading the upcoming events.
I got home, greeted by my father. I then, pretending I was a famous actress, lied to my father (quite well if I do say so myself!). He then moved up the wedding!!! This was almost impossible to keep my cool for. I just smiled at him and like a broken record, just kept saying 'thank you'. There is not much else to say.
So her I am...alone in my room. The Nurse and mother are gone, father is gone, and my family is gone. I am not sure if I will see any of them ever again, but if I can see Romeo then it will all be worth it. I am so scared. What if it's poison or doesn't work? What if I wake up and no one is there? I am all alone...abandoned? All my work for nothing? What if the Friar is going to slip up and tell my secret...I will have to marry Paris when I wake up anyway!!! What if I never see my Romeo again! My heart is beating like a humming birds wings, and my head throbs with questions and concerns. I wonder what my father will think. My mother? Nurse? I must gather courage from somewhere... Romeo...Romeo...Romeo... give me courage. I raise this vile to you, and only you.
P.S. I won't be able to write for a while, considering that I will be in a deep sleep (hopefully). I will write in you as soon as I am with Romeo.
Act 4 Scene 1 Lines 86 to 88
"Things that, to hear then told, have made me tremble;
And I will do without fear or doubt,
To live an unstain'd wife to my sweet love."
You will not believe the awful, horrible, terrifying, dreadful, excruciating day that I just had. I almost killed myself. It all started when I was just sitting my room, with all the curtains closed and the lights off, wasting the day away waiting for night. I was talking up a storm...to myself that is. Romeo and I were going to spend our fist night together... :)!!! I was so excited, when the Nurse came in my room, soaking my floor and my shirt in tears (it was her and me come to think of it...). She came in bawling, choking out words that didn't seem to fit. There was a...