Mom and dad,
I am so sorry for the pain, embarrassment and worry I have put you through I know I have made you guys upset and has been difficult for you all. All this misery was caused because of my selfish and unreasonable behavior. I can’t explain nor justify actions, I have no one to blame but myself and to be honest I still don’t know why I chose the path I did and made that thoughtless action. I know I can never take back what I have done, as much as I want so badly to do. You’ve stuck by me, love me unconditionally, marched on hot coals in fear of ever losing me. You are the only ones that have truly cared for me, supplied for my needs and honestly want what’s best for me. And every time I try to change, I throw it back at your faces. I’m sorry am not the perfect daughter that gets straight A’s or is clean and organized either but I do try hard to do my best everyday. I ...view middle of the document...
When I stole I cried, I cried so hard, slapping myself because i couldn’t believe i did such a thing. I cried because i have tried so hard to change and there i go and ruin it all as usual. I cried because i realized i bring nothing but deception to you and in my heart i know i am a good person, I do have good intentions mom and dad I just get caught up in my foolishness without thinking clearly. i love YOU so greatly, with all my heart and soul, more than anything in this world and it hurts so bad when i cant show you that love because i don’t know how to, i cant show you how much i care, how much i want you to be proud of me even when you know I’m not perfect. I hate the fact that I’m always disappointing you every other week and never doing things to make you pleased. You never smile or trust me anymore, and all i feel is upset when the realization kicks in and I know what I have done has caused all of this heaviness in your hearts. I know that when you looked at the baby smiling girl you never thought that I would turn out the way I did and make such stupid decisions. I don't know why I’ve acted the way i have in the past, but i honestly want to figure it out and become a much better happier person. I’m going to show you how much you guys mean to me, and do the little things that make you smile inside and out, I’m going to make you proud. I’m going to make decisions, smart decisions that will benefit us all and in the future make you happier parents. But I’m asking for one last chance from you, just to show you that I’m being real, that i truthfully mean what I’m saying. I love you both; I’m going to be your little baby, your sweet princess and the smiling girl I used to be. I’m going to make you smile and laugh like you once did and I’m going to love you more than i ever have. I have great admiration, honor and treasure you both; you mean the world to me. More than the world, more than life itself. That’s why I apologize with every ounce and beat in my heart, I don’t ask that you forgive me just to let you know how sincerely sorry I am. Love you guys forever.
your baby always,